Tuesday, December 30, 2008

another one of those nights where God seems to be calling out to me. sometimes i feel like it's my time to go back for good, but the next day, the feeling's gone. guess you cant live just by feelings huh. honestly, i wanna go back to my good old times where it was just God and me. but i guess times have changed. i'll give it another shot though..

i wanna go back to st hilda's to play for chapel again. wonder if my old band would care to join me. hope they've got time to also. wonder if the drop in would welcome us back as well, since it's under a different management. maybe isaac can pull strings for us. well, that's if the rest of them are interested to come back la..

hmmm.. somehow music and God always gets tied together when i look at it. honestly, whether i go to church or not, i feel like both are always there within me. just that i tend to turn my face away from them at times. but then again, they're what drives me. music inspires me and God comforts me. at times, God inspires me and music comforts me. and when i think about it all together, God manipulates the music around me to inspire and comfort me. how great is that? haha. i love music and i wanna love God more. now all i need are the steps to take. yes yes i know, go to church, read the bible, pray. those seem to be the hardest things to do man! >.< but yeah, i will try. it's gotta work! if not im as good as dead already.

you see, they are the greatest things that i've got. if not for them, i think im totally crap. crap by the roadside! sure, i've got great friends. a family, a gaming life. but somehow, deep in my heart, the best things that i've got is my passion for music, and the Holy Spirit. i dont know how many of you feel the same way, but that's exactly how i feel.

whatever it is, i believe all you Christians out there love God, and He's the best you'll ever get. besides that, my passion for music may be your love for something else. maybe you love photography, or paintings. or even cooking or dancing. whatever it is, these are the things(besides God) that will drive you to whatever you wanna be in the future. keep working on them and keep the faith! it'll take you far!

that's all for tonight. cheers!
~Me ♪ at 05:43