♫ This is the story
alright, been ages since i touched this blog.. but today i just gotta do it.
not feeling my best, in fact, one of my worst this year.. like, emo shit man
today i woke up late, missed quite a bit in sch, but that's not the point.
ever felt like your whole life seems screwed up? like you're just not the person you're meant to be, or you feel you should be? that everything around you seems like shit? well i have, and im feeling it. how bad could it be you might ask? well, it aint that bad, just that im emo shit.
i cant stand how i seem to be neither here nor there.. that my whole character isnt good. hmm, i guess some ppl call it low self-esteem.. i call it... emo shit. sigh.. what's wrong with me? hmm.. good question. maybe you could tell me? sigh..
you see, there's this girl.. friend's friend. now you must be thinking, "adrian's sucha player.. so many girls in such a short time.." but guess what? i aint playing. im just trying to make myself feel better from all the shit. anyways, this girl.. i just feel she's very far fetched for me.. yet sometimes i feel like it could work. maybe im just blinded by a fool's hope.. i can assure you, it aint love. not yet at least.. maybe it's just an obsession for love. i just hope she wont dislike me... i mean, it feels like our personalities clash.. she's realistic, im idealistic. and besides, i just got to know her.. now im just asking myself, is it worth risking again? is it worth trying it all again? what if i get hurt again? too much has happened in such a short time i just dont know if i can handle it. i dont wanna hurt anyone again..
"everything's done, but the fear remains"
i have a goal in life.. and that is to put hope in others who have lost it. it's to make ppl happy, and contented with life.. it's make life better for them, helping them believe that they can make it. but deep down inside, i havent found it myself.. i've been helping others, giving them things that i dont even know of. like what a good friend says.. im helping others get better, but what about myself? can i settle my own life before settling others'? it's a passion.. but this passion is tiring. tedious. i try so hard, deep down inside, i want to help. but i cant even help myself. yet, if i dont help now, i'd be mean.. sigh.. maybe ppl who make others happy are always deprived of happiness.
here's a song that i wrote that comes from my heart.. it's about finding hope in a world full of bad attitudes and selfishness.. here it goes...
find a way back.mp3 -
If i could take all of the pain, and all of the suffering that i have seen
Would you give hope to truth yet untold
Forgive all the agonies and all the lies
Oh, dont get upset, you'll find your way back
Is it enough to give all that cash
Your status in life are the assets you have
But deep down inside, you cant seem to find the light in the darkness
The life that you lack
Well, dont give up yet, you'll find your way back
And being your best is all that you're at
Pushing and shoving your way from the back
You dont give a damn 'bout anyone else
The people around you they feel so oppressed
But they dont make a sound, they're lost while you're found
The hustle and bustling life in the city
Has blinded our eyes from the forlorness wrecks
Oh is it fair? The world seems impaired
They no longer find any reason to care..
But if i could take all of the pain
And all of the suffering that i have seen
I wouldnt hold back, I'd give it all up
To make you believe you can hold up that smile
The world is a wreck, but we'll find our way back
Oh, the world is a wreck, but we'll find our way back..
We'll find our way back...
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yeah.. something like that.
~Me ♪ at 23:16
not feeling my best, in fact, one of my worst this year.. like, emo shit man
today i woke up late, missed quite a bit in sch, but that's not the point.
ever felt like your whole life seems screwed up? like you're just not the person you're meant to be, or you feel you should be? that everything around you seems like shit? well i have, and im feeling it. how bad could it be you might ask? well, it aint that bad, just that im emo shit.
i cant stand how i seem to be neither here nor there.. that my whole character isnt good. hmm, i guess some ppl call it low self-esteem.. i call it... emo shit. sigh.. what's wrong with me? hmm.. good question. maybe you could tell me? sigh..
you see, there's this girl.. friend's friend. now you must be thinking, "adrian's sucha player.. so many girls in such a short time.." but guess what? i aint playing. im just trying to make myself feel better from all the shit. anyways, this girl.. i just feel she's very far fetched for me.. yet sometimes i feel like it could work. maybe im just blinded by a fool's hope.. i can assure you, it aint love. not yet at least.. maybe it's just an obsession for love. i just hope she wont dislike me... i mean, it feels like our personalities clash.. she's realistic, im idealistic. and besides, i just got to know her.. now im just asking myself, is it worth risking again? is it worth trying it all again? what if i get hurt again? too much has happened in such a short time i just dont know if i can handle it. i dont wanna hurt anyone again..
"everything's done, but the fear remains"
i have a goal in life.. and that is to put hope in others who have lost it. it's to make ppl happy, and contented with life.. it's make life better for them, helping them believe that they can make it. but deep down inside, i havent found it myself.. i've been helping others, giving them things that i dont even know of. like what a good friend says.. im helping others get better, but what about myself? can i settle my own life before settling others'? it's a passion.. but this passion is tiring. tedious. i try so hard, deep down inside, i want to help. but i cant even help myself. yet, if i dont help now, i'd be mean.. sigh.. maybe ppl who make others happy are always deprived of happiness.
here's a song that i wrote that comes from my heart.. it's about finding hope in a world full of bad attitudes and selfishness.. here it goes...
find a way back.mp3 -
If i could take all of the pain, and all of the suffering that i have seen
Would you give hope to truth yet untold
Forgive all the agonies and all the lies
Oh, dont get upset, you'll find your way back
Is it enough to give all that cash
Your status in life are the assets you have
But deep down inside, you cant seem to find the light in the darkness
The life that you lack
Well, dont give up yet, you'll find your way back
And being your best is all that you're at
Pushing and shoving your way from the back
You dont give a damn 'bout anyone else
The people around you they feel so oppressed
But they dont make a sound, they're lost while you're found
The hustle and bustling life in the city
Has blinded our eyes from the forlorness wrecks
Oh is it fair? The world seems impaired
They no longer find any reason to care..
But if i could take all of the pain
And all of the suffering that i have seen
I wouldnt hold back, I'd give it all up
To make you believe you can hold up that smile
The world is a wreck, but we'll find our way back
Oh, the world is a wreck, but we'll find our way back..
We'll find our way back...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah.. something like that.
~Me ♪ at 23:16